In this episode of Luminary Leadership Podcast, I’m inviting you to walk with me through one of the most harrowing experiences of my life.
In a previous episode, I shared the heart-wrenching loss of my baby at 17 weeks pregnant. But the story didn’t end there. What followed was a series of events that tested my will, my faith, and my very life.
Dismissal and Desperation
My time at the hospital post-delivery was nothing short of a nightmare. I remember feeling utterly overwhelmed, a sentiment exacerbated by what I perceived as a lack of proper medical attention. Despite my concerns about excessive bleeding and a growing sense of lightheadedness, I was initially reassured by the hospital staff that everything was normal. But as my condition rapidly deteriorated, the reassurances felt hollow, and my frustration turned into fear.
My Husband’s Love and Advocacy
In those moments of escalating crisis, my husband, Michael, became my unwavering advocate. He sought advice from medical professionals, demanding the urgent intervention I so desperately needed. As I began to hemorrhage profusely, the terrifying prospect of not surviving became all too real. I found myself preparing for the worst, expressing my love for Michael and conveying my wishes for our children’s future, should I not make it through.
Rushed into surgery, I experienced a profound shift in perspective. I let go of my attempts to negotiate with God, instead embracing the acceptance of His will. Clutching my husband’s crucifix over my chest, I realized I had to trust in the unknown path ahead. It was a powerful moment of surrender, one that would shape my entire outlook on life.
Divine Intervention and Miraculous Peace
Even as I faced this critical situation, I felt an inexplicable sense of calm wash over me. I attribute this miraculous peace to my faith, to the presence of God in my life. It was this inner strength that allowed me to comfort Michael and face the impending surgery with trust and surrender.
As I was being prepared for surgery, I recall the stark disconnect between the ER team and the operating team. This gap in communication led to a delay in grasping the severity of my condition. It wasn’t until the extent of my bleeding became apparent that the medical team sprang into action with the urgency the situation demanded.
Post-surgery, the road to recovery was fraught with physical and emotional challenges. I openly share the impact of the blood loss on my ability to function and the complications from the transfusion. Mourning the loss of my baby while processing my near-death experience was a deeply emotional and introspective journey.
Clarity, Purpose, and a Second Chance
Despite the pain and discomfort, I found moments of clarity and purpose. The profound impact of this experience on my family and my business led me to reevaluate my role and priorities. I emerged with a newfound conviction to embrace the second chance I had been given and to live in alignment with my calling.
My story is a testament to the strength of the human spirit and our capacity for growth and renewal in the face of adversity.
I hope that by sharing my journey, you too can find the strength to face your own challenges with courage and faith. Remember, even in the darkest of times, there is a light that can guide us through. Thank you for allowing me to share my story with you.
